Wednesday, November 7, 2007

My Clock is Ticking like a Timebomb


That is true. Ibang-iba talaga pag alam mong bilang na bilang na lang ang araw mo dito sa mundo. Before, wala sa ugali ko ang magbilang ng araw pero ngayon, or noong nalaman ko na may sakit ako, di natatapos ang araw na napapabuntong-hininga ako at sinasabi sa sarili, "hay, isang araw na naman ang lumipas". Feeling ko ngayon ambilis-bilis ng paglipas ng mga araw. Kakasimula pa lang ng linggo pero parang nasa weekend na agad ako. Madami akong gustong gawin and parang kinakapos parati ako ng oras.


Minsan naiinis ako sa relo ko kse oras-oras tumutunog sya, and parang napepressure ako na gawin ang mga bagay na gusto kong gawin. Kaso sa pagkadami-daming bagay na gusto kong gawin, nawawala naman ako sa focus. Di ko na malaman ngayon kung ano ang uunahin ko. Magulo ang isipan ko. Parang parating may naghahabol sa kin at parang tumatakbo ako parati. Nakakapagod. Sana mafocus ko ang sarili ko.


Well Im sure I will be able to focus myself. Bago pa lang kse kaya medyo nangangapa pa ako. Isang araw na naman ang lumipas at ang 20 years ko (life expectancy ng mga HIV+) ay nababawasan ng nababawasan.

8 comments:

Rob said...
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Rob said...

Hi! Just a suggestion, why not start focusing on your spiritual path. When I say spiritual path, I'm not talking about you getting-holier-than -thou or walk-on-your-knee-towards-the-altar sort of recourse. I'm talking about enlightenment and spiritual awareness. We all experience various challenges in life in different degrees. It's how we deal with these challenges that makes the difference.

Anyway, below you will find a link. Read from the very beginning. Digest every thing. Who knows, you might find the answers that you're looking for, specially about your illness. I have to warn you though, be open minded. Focus on the unlimited possibilities. There's nothing to lose but everything to gain. I wish for your enlightenment.

http://law-of-attraction-info.com/dialogues/

(then click on the TABLE OF CONTENTS at the very bottom of the screen)

powerbottom.ph said...

napag-isip ako ng post mo. kasi naisip ko yung buhay ko na masyadong work-oriented at sobrang nase-set-aside yung ibang bagay. naisip ko bakit ang trabaho kapag binigyan ng deadline, na-a-accomplsh; pero yung ibang parte ng buhay, hindi?

siguro, the flip side of a "timebomb" is that it forces you to focus and prioritize on the things that really REALLY matter. baka nga blessing yan, in the sense, na mas may time ka to really do the things that make you happy. some of us are so entrenched in work that we fail to live life, maybe we all need a deadline

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